have you ever just looked at someone and thought, my fucking god i love you. i love every goddamn ounce. i love your bones and your soul. but I’m a loser, who just doesn’t wanna lose you. i can lose fucking everything, but not you. oh god. not you.
like honestly, sleeping next to someone is the nicest thing. like when you half wake up at 4am and squeeze them or they move in tighter to you. lovely.
What does it even take to not feel so miserable? I feel like I’m doing this to myself. I feel like I shouldn’t even try to fix the way I feel cause I probably just deserve to feel like this.
it probably seems like i cry over stupid shit but tbh i usually end up crying because i’ve stored up all of my upset feelings from multiple things rather than express them and then the littlest thing sets me off like spilling my drink may not be that big of a deal but when i’ve stored up that many negative emotions it feels like i busted a hole in the hoover dam
I have no interest in one night stands.
I have no interest in 6 month stands.
I have no interest in love made for movie screens.
I want for someone to take my body and soul,
and spend the rest of their life with me.
I want another human to fall asleep next to me
tomorrow and the next day and an eternity after that.
Someone who I wake up next to and never have wonder if they are going to leave.